Former Top Chef contestant Fatima Ali thought she beat Ewings Sarcoma, a rare type of cancer, but she’s now facing the reality she will likely be gone within the next year.
Ali opened up about her devastating prognosis in a heart-wrenching article she wrote for Bon Appetit.
“The cancer cells my doctors believed had vanished are back with a vengeance in my left hip and femur bone,” revealed Ali, who thought the disease had gone into remission but got bad news in September. “My oncologist has told me that I have a year to live, with or without the new chemotherapy regimen. I was looking forward to being 30, flirty, and thriving. Guess I have to step it up on the flirting. I have no time to lose.”
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“It’s funny, isn’t it? When we think we have all the time in the world to live, we forget to indulge in the experiences of living,” Ali wrote. “When that choice is yanked away from us, that’s when we scramble to feel. I am desperate to overload my senses in the coming months, making reservations at the world’s best restaurants, reaching out to past lovers and friends, and smothering my family, giving them the time that I so selfishly guarded before.”
During her last moments left on Earth, Ali noted, she’s doing everything from dying her hair platinum blonde and asking forgiveness from people she’s wronged to just trying to deal with accepting her end is near. “I’m scared,” she wrote.
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Still, she explained, “everyone’s amazed that I’m taking it so well. But when you hit rock bottom, there really is no place to go but up.”
“An odd sense of relief has settled inside me, knowing that I can finally live for myself, even if it’s just for a few more precious months.”
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